Amphetamines, including speed, can be addictive and dangerous. Using this drug long-term can cause high blood pressure, heart problems and even mental disorders. It can also make people horny and increase their sexual desire. It is illegal to take this drug without a prescription. This can lead to serious legal consequences, including jail time. It can also cause you to become depressed and have hallucinations.
A lot of people, gay or not, develop crushes on a classmate, friend's older sibling or another person. This doesn't mean they're gay or lesbian, and it certainly doesn't mean they're bisexual. It can be hard to figure out your sexual orientation, and having a crush doesn't always help. It's also worth remembering that many people have multiple sexual and romantic orientations at the same time.
There are a lot of ways to be gay, and the only one who gets to label you is you. Don't listen to people who tell you how to be a gay man or woman, and don't let anyone make you feel like you have to conform to some sort of "gay monolith." And remember, if your friends only support you if you play it straight, they may not be genuine. Look for a community that offers unconditional support and love. There are a variety of online forums, Facebook groups and subreddits that can connect you with other LGBTQIA+ people. You can also find support from the Trevor Project or a local LGBT organization.